More than thirteen years ago my life was changed forever.
A dream became a reality...
I became a mother.
That September day,
my life,
was
made better,
forever.
The years passed
and I was blessed twice more.
Today,
I am the mother
of three children.
There is nothing
I wouldn't give,
nothing
I wouldn't do,
to protect them,
to provide for them...
I know every good parent feels the way I do.
I find myself,
in a position,
I wouldn't wish
on anyone in this world.
My youngest son...
has behaviors and needs...
that may just be too much...
to remain in my care...
in our home.
There are no easy solutions,
no way to look into his eyes,
and explain... no ready answers.
I sit typing...
wishing that I wasn't the one who had to figure it all out.
I try to pray,
I feel like Job...
I want a rescue,
an answer
that won't break any one's heart.
I'm headed out to my swing,
to look into the sky...
to soak in the beauty of creation.
To try,
to find a way to accept
the unacceptable.
I pray for you,
I pray for me...
That tonight and always,
when we hit that wall...
the one at the edge of forever...
That you,
that I,
that we,
are given the strength and wisdom
to do what has to be done.
May our dear ones,
be held close by the
God who made us all.
May He,
keep them safe,
bless them,
Now, Always, Forever.
